4. From Past to Present

The Lord began to work in small ways for me (keep in mind I was still blind to His works).  My brother and his wife began having trouble with the house they were trying to purchase, which in turn had them looking for other places to move.  They were provided with a house that was perfect for them, the catch was that it had one less bedroom and was a little smaller than the house they were currently in.  So I had to start looking for a place of my own.  With two jobs I qualified for an apartment, this wasn't any apartment, it was a complex that was centralized to everywhere I wanted to be, affordable in relation to the size and location of the apartment (thank the Lord for His blessing).  I went from being a contracted employee to being hired full time.  The car I was driving began to be repaired slowly but surely and the parts were affordable and the repairs went better than with any car I had driven before.  Thanks to the Lord our Great provider.  Unfortunately I began to slip again, I was still working 7 days a week not getting much sleep and still not spending the time with my son that I should have been.  I began to pray more and more even though I was still very new to faith, God, and prayer.  I began to be hassled by certain management members at my part time job to the point were I put in my two week notice.  I didn't think I could afford living with just one job but I began to grow in my faith.  When I told my son's mother of leaving the part time job she inquired how I was going to afford his new daycare, insurance, supplies for the baby, my apartment...and my response for the first time ever was "I have faith that the Lord will provide."  Within a couple of weeks of leaving my part time job I began to attend what is now my church (Thank you again to the Lord for bringing here).  I was approached by our music minister to play on the worship team, as he found out that I play the piano and had been taking lessons to clear the cobwebs.  So I joined the worship team and have enjoyed the fellowship and friendship ever since then.  I am now able to get my son every other weekend (after working the schedule out with his mom) and I have been able to spend quality time with him to the point were I feel I can accept when he calls me "daddy".  I have been able to pay my rent, the daycare, insurance, my bills, and have started to donate to my church with just one income.  And the Lord provided me with a wonderful woman who cares for me, encourages me, and accepts me for who I am.  All this has been provided by the Lord and I thank the Lord for all of His blessings big and small.